I am an ordinary woman working in a company with foreign investment. Anyone who saw me from the outside would conclude that I am a happy girl who lacks nothing. Unfortunately, that’s not the case. I don’t lack youth, body, face, career, home, community, but my personal life is really dark. I lost my father when I was young and never felt the love of a father, and when I got a boyfriend
If you can’t replace my father, who is always my support, at least I want someone to protect me with his love. When I was a student, I had a boyfriend who was much older than me. Then I got pregnant. The guy dumped me as soon as he found out I was pregnant. In fact, it was an animal that was human waste.
On top of that, I didn’t finish school and everything was not smooth, like housing and work, so I gave birth to my first child at the age of 20, although it was difficult. Time passed like a bullet, and after finishing school, I joined the company I am currently working for. New place, new job, new friends, everything was great, I was just flying. I was a very free-spirited child in the group, so I was learning a lot of things that were really encouraging to work with foreigners. I had a lot of guys running after me. One of them is my colleague
The Australian guy liked it very much and we started growing it. Everything about him seemed like a fairy tale to me. I fell in love with him and he fell in love with me. I have never once felt hurt when people spoke ill of me or called me a promiscuous person. He was enough for me.
For a note, I myself have a hybrid appearance, no one would say that I am a pure Mongolian girl. I did not befriend him for money. Besides, I don’t have a lot of things to do, so I don’t have anything to hide for 30 years. I didn’t care what anyone who truly loved that person said. And so, time passed, and it was like heaven after falling in love. But one day, my beautiful life was like a thunderbolt, and I found out from his wife that my beloved man is married and has 3 children.
Immediately I decided to divorce, but it was too late. I was so in love with him that I couldn’t get rid of him no matter how hard I tried. You’re sinning inside, you haven’t been forced to stop it thousands of times. From that day on, my happiness gradually decreased, and then, my God, I was pregnant again. I thought I would take it out this time, but my boyfriend hurt me so much that I had to change my mind.
As soon as he found out, he talked for 30 minutes, gave a lecture, went on vacation, and stopped talking at all, but here I am, alone, pregnant, and I waited until I was pregnant, thinking that he would talk at least once… N0wsh, abortion again, I even hate myself now. . He came back. I missed him so much that I was hurt to the core, but because of that, I ran to his house again and spent the night with him, and milk came out of my breast all night, and I cried. He started looking at other girls and asking for their phone number.
I’ve never been hurt so much by anyone in my life, I’m not that eloquent by nature, so it’s very difficult to write how I got to 30. I don’t even know how to say it. When he insulted me like that, I used to run to his house crying just because of that person. Even used condoms were found in the bed once. It’s true that love is blind, girls… People are really blind when they fall in love. Now I broke up with that guy.
But because he loves me, he wants to go back against his will. On top of that, the hardest part is always thinking about what our child would be like. It’s really hard to cry just to see a little child and dream that he would be like this now. I don’t know what to do, I tried becoming a vegetarian and meditating to relax, but it didn’t help. Now I have no hope to trust anyone, no energy to take from life – my soul is just a wasteland, I have no idea what to live for.. I spend my days with the help of brown wine.
I know I have to be strong and not give up on stuff like this, but the people I meet just treat me like shit. That’s why I start thinking about what I’m doing wrong. But since I have made this choice myself twice, I think that I will hurt myself. What I’m trying to say here is, know your fellow man, stay away from those beasts with human skin, beautiful faces, eloquent tongues, and humanoid beasts.